Ever since i got married, and especially after i had nahla ive had some behavior changes.
I never realized how much i loved time to myself, before i had none.
Don't get me wrong, i love hanging out with robbie, and i love playing with nahla. I really like quiet time with myself though.
In an episode of sex in the city adian moves in with carrie, and she complains the whole episode to her friends how she needs time by herself. She finally confronts adian in the end telling him she needs 1 hour of piece and quiet.
I settle for time throughout the day. Whatever i can get.
Sometimes I sit in the bottom of the shower and think while i "deep condition" my hair. Let me just say it calms me and my hair is actually looking better.
Sometimes after i drop nahla off at grandmas or nanas, before i go to work i go back to my apartment and sit in the silence (don't tell them)
Sometimes I take the long way home. Just so i can sing as loud as i want in the car. ( i have a terrible voice)
Sometimes i stay up really late, just because its quiet.
Sometimes i wake up early, just because its quiet.
Sometimes i tell robbie i have to get something from the store and just wander the aisles in peace.
I really do love them...am i the only one who does this?
Definitely not the only one doing stuff like that. lol When Jaren and I were dating, Jaren used to tell me that he needed his own time, and i thought, 'weird. i don't need my own time.' It wasn't until I got married that I realized that I did have my own time when I was single, I just didn't think of it as "my own time."
ReplyDeleteI usually get up early and sit there for a few minutes in a warm place, not really thinking about anything in particular. Or, I'll come home in the middle of the day just to get some time to breathe. It's different when you're doing chores and someone is two feet away, not bothering you, and when you are completely alone doing your own thing. Different.