sitting on the fence

im blogging today because of a cosmo article i read about women on the fence about becoming mothers.

i can understand some women not wanting kids, and if they feel that way it is their choice. however i hate the phrase im not mother material, it's not in my genes,any variant on that.

babies seriously hated me before i had nahla. i half expected her to cry as well when i held her. to be honest i really had no idea what i was going to need to do after i had her. i remember thinking that on the way home from the hospital. but shes still alive, and not to my surprise. my mommy gene kicked in right away. i mean honestly if your body is programed to have kids you have to expect that nature will at least steer you in a direction to care for them.

people who are on the fence, because they think they might be bad at it can rest assured, they won't be.

the other annoyance is people saying your life will be over!, its so much work, you'll never have fun again. these people have never had kids,or they are really stuck up parents who probably never had fun to begin with.

i will admit its hard. but its not rocket science, feed change play sleep repeat. an idiot really could figure it out. my life has not ended, sure i have more responsibility, but thats part of being an adult. if i took a new job id have responsibility too, sure i can't quit because some days it makes me literally break down and cry, but i wouldn't want to. oh and i still have a life.

it is psychologically, the hardest thing i have ever begun to do. (ive still got a long way to go, and robbie and i signed up for round two) but it is the is the most rewarding. helping someone grow and develop their own personality is amazing. nahla has made me better in so so many ways and i expect she will continue to. as i expect all my children will.

its a life opportunity not worth missing.